Ayt so today I had a pretty good day, exactly what I needed. After church all my bwois came & kidnapped me, we rode around drifting on the streets & shit. That was fun AF. One of em’ even got scared & got out the car…(Bitch).
We visited my bwoi Kage, chilled & played some ping-pong…(I’m badass) We also bumrushed Giancarlo’s crib and pretty much jumped on him till he woke up…(Funny shit)
Met up with Khathu & Rocky for a joint then headed home. I knw it wasn’t much but it was pretty cool spendin’ time with my bwois. All that was missing was my hunie. Anyway, stay humble.
Don’t even have a title for the shit I’m writing. I’ve got so much happening right now, some good & some bad. Its like in certain areas of my life I just can’t do right, no matter how hard I try. I’ve been told many times that I’m emotionally unstable person & I pretty much agree with that.
I don’t really wanna go into exactly into what I’m uneasy about but I feel some things in my life are falling apart & there are very few things I can actually say are going good. Even some things I thought would always make me happy & be good for me are looking bleak. I’m alone. Bye.
Right now I’m probably at my lowest I’ve been in months. I’m skeptical about a whole lot of shit, being disappointed by some & some shit is just not going well at all. My dad is leaving again, this is some shit that has really brought me down because we were at a point where we actually building a father & son relationship. His departure is by his choice though, some shit happened & now he has to leave. So no blame to him.
I don’t really have any true friends left, I’ve got ex friends which are now just acquaintances & that really sucks because I really need someone to vent to. I spoke to a dear friend of mine Ciggy though, I kinda feel better. The few friends I have left are the ones I trust. Man I’ve got so many mixed emotions right now but I’m somewhat inspired to work harder make solid progress.
As I said in my answer to a question I was asked, I am somewhat of an optimist so even though I’m going through a whole lot of stuff right now, a rose will blossom amongst thorns. My momma raised me well. I have to keep pushing, the end is very far, shiiiiit my life has pretty much just begun so imma make the best of it & get all I can from this bitch. When I get to the top I will value it so much more because I know the bottom very well. Stay humble. Goodnight & God Bless.
Yep, its been a few days since I’ve pretty much posted anything. I guess I was going through some sort problem with expression, I mean so much has happened within the past few days but I just don’t know how to put it into words in a way where yal will understand it exactly how I perceive it.
Right now I’m trying my best to be here for my dad & help him out because he is really going through some shit. I’ve always looked to my dad for help, so now it feels kinda weird being his form of moral support because he has never really required anything from me besides doing good in school. He actually thanked me today for being around at a time like this. Our relationship has really grown from when I used to just tell people I don’t have a dad. I’m proud of him. There’s still a whole lot of others things I wanna let out, so expect a whole lot more posts from me. Otherwise, Goodnight & God Bless.